Enough is Enough

It's that time of year again when we stop to reflect on our past year and what we have (or haven't) accomplished.  It's also the time that we set resolutions for ourselves for what we want to accomplish in the year to come.
I read an interesting post on the Green Mountain blog recently entitled "With Resolutions, Try Small and Mighty."  http://www.fitwoman.com/blog/
This blog encourages us to change our habit of making great big resolutions, long lists of intentions, and sweeping goals that will surely fall flat weeks or months into the new year.  Instead, it suggests making a small goal.  Something that is reachable and achievable.  By focusing on that one goal, we can change it, mold it, and grow it as we achieve it.  Imagine that, a resolution we actually achieve!
The part of the blog that spoke to me the most was:
Put the perfectionism to bed. You know her – the one always whispering to you that you’re not enough, that you haven’t done enough, that something or someone isn’t good enough.
Perfectionism (or lack thereof) is something I struggle with.  If I do everything as perfect as I can then maybe people won't notice my weight.  When it isn't perfect, I can be my harshest critic.  I struggle with the concept of being enough, I have a little voice in my head that whispers to me, your not enough, it's not enough, you didn't try hard enough.  My weight is a constant voice in my head that makes me feel like I am not enough.  No matter how hard I try in other areas of my life, I still feel that my accomplishments would be better if only I were skinnier.  If I receive a compliment such as, you look so nice, in my head I think, I would look much nicer if I was skinny.  I ran a 5K and still I thought, people would probably believe I was a runner if I was skinnier.  It's stupid, it's annoying, and usually not true but these are the little things that we do to belittle ourselves. 
When I finally get frustrated or overwhelmed with the effort of making everything perfect and enough, I give up.  It's all or nothing.  Stick to the healthy eating plan perfectly or not at all.  Exercise 4 times a week or not at all. 
So, I think one of my small goals will be to work on acknowledging that my efforts are enough.  By feeling that I am enough, I feel that this will influence my life in so many positive ways.